Brittlebear

Recently I've been getting a lot of requests. Which is great and I really enjoy making stuff for other people. However, I think I need to make some guidelines about what I am willing to do for  those who are interested in making a request in the future.

• If you want to request a picture from me, send me a note. 
• I only do ONE request per person.
• If you want to commission me for more work I'd love that. But I can't make you 10+ images that can take anywhere from 2-5 hours each without asking for something in return.
• No backgrounds.
• I am an illustrator, which means I specialize in drawing characters. It also means my backgrounds look like a 6 year old drew them and you don't want that.
• If you are expecting something, be clear and descriptive about what you want.
• For example I draw a lot of digimon, but I can draw them either in a more realistic fashion (like a dinosaur) or in their original TV/game style. So try to be clear about what you are looking for.
• I might not get your request done right away. It could take me a week or a month or longer. I'm asking you to please be patient.
• If you are worried I've forgotten your request or want to know what the progress is, send me a note and I'll give you an update.
• Please link to any reference or additional fanart of the image you want me to draw, if applicable. 
• I retain the RIGHT to drop your request if I don't have the time or I feel I cannot do it, I'll be sure to tell you via note if this is the case.
  
• I also retain the right to refuse a request if I don't feel comfortable doing it, or if I just have no desire to draw what you're asking for.
• You can repost your request but please give credit and link back!
  

So I haven't done much artwork on Deviantart recently. Mostly meaning I haven't drawn on my tablet/computer in a while. Why? Well I've been working like mad on some sewing projects, which I like to think of as it's own form of art. I got a standing quilting frame so now I can actually finish my blanket projects I've been working on. I should probably take a few pictures and maybe post them for you guys. I don't know if that'd be something you all would be interested it, but don't think I'm just dead or gone forever. I'm just working on different projects that aren't drawing.

I was given a cross-stitching lap quilt kit over a year ago and finally got it done, and decided to turn it into a twin sized blanket for my 2 year old niece. So when she gets her own bed (which will be shortly now) she will have her own nice quilted blanket on top. So that's the project I'm working on now, just have to do all the hand sewing putting the blanket together.

So if you want a picture of that, or some progress pictures then I could put those up. I just don't think that's what most people are here to see. I hope to get back into drawing on my tablet soon, I miss it. But I only have so much free time, so it's hard to have multiple projects going on at once.

So when I do get back into drawing (hopefully soon) are there any suggestion on what people wan to see. What do you want to see me draw more then anything? I'm definitely open to ideas!

I was so excited when I was informed about this awesome kickstarter. For those of you that grew up on the amazing works of Don Bluth (many without realizing who was the mastermind behind their childhood horrors/dreams), the animator behind such movies as The Secret of Nimh, All Dogs go to Heaven, An American Tail, The Land Before Time, Anatasia, Titan A.E., Rock A Doodle, and video games Space Ace and Dragons Lair. Bluth is once again taking up the old pen and paper to make a Dragons Lair Movie!

I would love for anyone who enjoyed those films as a kid to at least check it out or just spread the word to people you think might be interested in this. Since it's such a amazing way to once again see some classic hand drawn animation. Finally, and from a legend like Bluth!

Check it out, and if you feel so inclined pledge a little support, everything helps. I pledged what I could, a small amount, but it's something!

www.kickstarter.com/projects/d…

I think I'm finally coming to terms about a side of myself I've been trying to ignore since I was a teenager. Well doesn't that sound like I"m leading into a coming-out type statement, but it kinda is, in a different way then traditionally thought. I have bipolar disorder, I haven't been diagnosed but I know myself better then anyone, and I'm the only one who knows what goes on in my mind.

It's hard for me to admit, since I grew up knowing my aunt was 'crazy.' She has bipolar disorder and her kids vowed never to have kids of their own because they didn't want to pass this particular genetic disorder on to anyone else. Which always made me pretty paranoid and self-conscious when I began to suspect that the depression I had been diagnosed with as a teen might be more then just depression. It makes sense, and with my most recent (and current) bought of hypomania, I've finally come to fully accept that I can no longer ignore this. I'm a nanny, I watch my niece and nephew during the day and I can't in good conscious play pretend normal when I'm very not.

I have been feeling super creative and couldn't sleep, well didn't feel like sleeping, because the only thing that could quiet my mind was drawing. So I drew, all night, and when I awoke after three hours I felt fine, maybe a little achy but not tired. When I'm not drawing my brain is on overdrive, I can't even process all the images and thoughts I'm having they're moving too fast. I foolishly drove a short distance yesterday and I shouldn't have, since I couldn't barely stay focused on the road. My eyes kept darting about while my brain threw constant things at me. My focus is completely shot unless I'm drawing, which is so strange, it's the only thing that allows my brain to just settle and focus.

It's not healthy to simply remain unmedicated or at least undiagnosed. So I'm going to get an appointment and get myself into see a doctor. I'm not my aunt, I know what the problem is and I'm going to do something about it. I don't want to be scared of this disease anymore. I am intelligent and reasonable, I don't have to be afraid that admitting this will label me as a crazy person. I just wanted to write this out for my own peace of mind. So that I can remember it later if I ever forget.

Something seems off, mentally. I spent the majority of the day with my brain racing, I couldn't stay focused on anything. With the exception of art, then when I stared in on a project I didn't stop until I was completely done, and now it's 3am. I have to work in the morning, I'll be forced away in less then 4 hours now. This type of thing doesn't happen often to me, though it has happened now enough times that I have to wonder if something is wrong with me.

I was driving and could barely keep my eyes focused on the road my mind was just jumping around too much, eye darting. The last time I remember this happening, I went on a sleepless binge of art-drawing for about 38 hours. I'm glad I at least recognized that it was happening again and thus I've stopped for now well at least long enough to try and sleep, but even when I try that it's difficult as my mind is still keeping me up with rapid-fire thinking. I can't even remember half the stuff I think about, like it's going too fast for me to process. I wanted to write this down so I could try and organize my thoughts, and keep a record of how I'm feeling as it happens. I also felt tired, ache and had a massive migraine all day despite taking some excedrin to try and dull the pain. I should probably talk to a doctor about it.